Our life is spent looking to the future. What adventures will we find there?





Saturday, 11 August 2012

Past, present, future.


Here in Cusco there is a street for everything, there is a street of hair dressers, a street of mattress shops, a street of key cutters and little tiny hardware stores, streets of stationary stores, streets of cheap shoes, and around the corner a street of slightly cheaper clothes, a street of veterinarians, and our least favourite, stinky meat street. If you want it, as long as you know where to look, you can find anything. Even happiness.  Right now my happiness lies in the laid back pace of the weekend, a delicious coffee, a vegemite roll and an amazing tax return. I suppose I can also attribute happiness to the inspiring people I am surrounded by – James, who I love even more each day, our gorgeous housemates Kelly and Ruben who are proving that anything is possible, a weekly changing but always amazing group of volunteers who we are working with, the blind man from Guatemala who I see at the supermarket, the man in the coffee shop who was trying to teach me Qechua, and so importantly the beautiful children we are working with – as well as where we are, what we are doing and what we have to look forward to.

Sometimes I still find it hard to believe where we are, over five months have now passed since we landed in Buenos Aires, all those hundreds of kilometres and experiences ago. I remember feeling a slight disappointment as we were flying above the city, heading into the airport, I’m not sure exactly what I expected, purple trees, orange grass, green sky, possibly not. But I thought it would look different, oh so different. From up in the air the city didn’t look that different at all. But our main problems in those early days of our trip were the differences, the different language, culture, a different way to communicate, different ways to get around. A different lifestyle.  Now I guess the most difficult issues we are facing are the differences that we are finding within ourselves as we learn and grow each day, as we move further away from who we were when we touched down in BA and closer to who we will be when this journey eventually merges back into life in Australia. Who knows who exactly we will be when our plane touches down in Melbourne in mid-January next year, I wonder will we be astounded at the sameness, or will we be seeing things with such a different vision that things will never again be familiar. Who knows, it’s a long way off and I have a lot of growing to do before then, and I’m glad I can’t predict the future, as it will be a whole other adventure when we get home.

About a month and a half ago we were at the Aldea on a beautiful Saturday, the doors wide open to let in the sun and the breeze, cleaning out the classroom. As with any classroom they very quickly acquire a whole lot of unnecessary ‘stuff’ if you aren’t careful, so we were there to sort out the crazy clutter. A sad little face had been looking in the door for a while, curious but not confident enough to step in, I asked his name, how old he was, if he wanted to come in to have a look. I was met with very little response, a name after much prompting, a little glimmer in the eye when Peluche, the households dog, jumped up to greet him. The best method I thought would be patience. I kept going about my business, adding to the pile of rubbish, putting the toys on the new shelfs, sorting out the puppets, occasionally asking a question or saying something silly to see if I could get the start of a smile. After five minutes or so the sad little face in the doorway turned into a little boy with worn out shoes standing on the first of two steps to enter the room, asking a question about the toys. A break was needed from tidying the room, so I upended a puzzle of farmyard animals on the table closest to the door and sat down to enjoy it, and possibly entice this sad little figure further into the room. The little man gave in to his inner child shortly after, and joined me at the table to help me with the puzzle, though still he didn’t say much at all. We sat for a while in silence, occasional congratulations for finding a puzzle piece, until the little man’s older sister walked past and saw him, telling him to come home. Before he was gone I asked him to come back with his mum on Monday afternoon, wouldn’t it be great to play with these toys every day?

Monday afternoon came and I was looking for his little face peeking through the door, but I never found it… I was a little disappointed but not surprised, I hadn’t noticed him in the neighbourhood before and guessed that his shyness may have overcome his desire to come along to WaaW. It was a couple of days more before I saw him again, enthusiastically asking him to bring his mum along tomorrow afternoon, met by very little response, maybe a twinkle in the eye, imagined or not I can’t be sure. It took a few more of these meetings in the street, but the following Friday his mum did come along and give her permission for him and one of his older brothers to start attending the program. Monday came and I was feeling pretty chuffed with my success, waiting and waiting, greeting the other kids as they came through the door but really hoping to see one particular little man’s face, which never appeared until the following day. When it did, it was through the window rather than the door that I saw his serious face, I went outside to chat, and after about 20 minutes finally persuaded him to come inside and join the other kids, as his big brother had without hesitation. For the first two or three days the only time I saw a hint of a smile was when Peluche tried to eat his snack, the first time I heard little guffaw of laughter was when he beat me at a maths game all of the kids were playing. He and his older brother have been coming to the program for around a month now. His older brother proving to be the almost exact opposite, a leader amongst the other kids, a charmer to the profes’, with enough confidence and kindness to make his life much easier than his little brothers. Though despite that over the weeks it has become very apparent they have a really tough life, they are the two youngest with seven brothers and sisters, living in a house without electricity or running water, wearing the same clothes day in and day out. Two weeks ago we noticed, on our Friday outing, that the little serious man was rummaging through bins, presumably to find food. It is just a little indication of how tough these kids have it, how easy it would be for them to resort to crime to survive, how hard it will be for these super smart kids to make a life for themselves, pull themselves out of poverty. The serious little man smiles a lot now, he is talking with the other kids and is becoming increasingly confident with the profesoras, he has proved to us he isn’t behind at all when it comes to his schooling, he concentrates well but still occasionally finds it hard to take that first step through the door into the classroom. He came and sat with me while another of our little men was reading to me, cuddling into me, for warmth or for comfort or just to see the pictures, I’m not sure. But he is often pretty close by me when I look up from what I’m doing.


The thing I worry about most for all for these beautiful, smart and loving kids, not just the little serious man and his older brother, is the future. Right now all is well and good, we are putting food in their bellies and a little warmth and joy in their lives. They respond with gratefulness and love to everyone involved, they prove to be kids built from the right stuff, despite their hardships they care so much about each other, always putting their friends and siblings first, sharing what they have and rarely longing for anything they don’t have. They have resilience that any teacher in Australia would be astounded by, after all it is a necessity in their life to be resilient to cope with the stresses and hardships that they face daily, obstacles that they rarely see as hardships, as they are, realistically, just part of a normal life for everyone they know.
These kids are living it up now, full bellies, people who want nothing but to see these kids happy, but how can we change their futures that have been laid out in front of them by poverty?  I think it’s a question that really is impossible to answer, but I hope in some ways we are making a small change, if not just to the present, to the future as well…

So, on a lighter note, a little insight into what we have been doing over the last couple of weeks. Last week we took off on a trek with Kelly and Ruben to Choquequirao, it was an amazing and extremely difficult trek, worth it for the experience, for the amazing ruins at the end of it, and for the walk in itself.  Check out some photos:


Getting ready to head off on our trek



Contemplating the world

Our Mule, begrudgingly carrying our things,
better him than me!

Hmmm, what would happen if I threw a rock down there?!

A lonely little tree.

Touching the moon.

Do Not Lean!

The sun setting over the Apurimac Valley towards
the end of our first day.


The moon and the crazy Dr. Suess trees.

If you look closely you can see the crazy climb we have to do tomorrow!

Contemplating the climb, hold me up James!



A tiny little town where we stopped to eat lunch on day 2, a long walk from
anywhere.


Cock of the mountain!



Our first glimpse of Choquequirao, only around 30% of the ruins have been
uncovered from the jungle, what you can see here is mostly terracing, at the
top of the mountain is the town, though the whole hillside is covered in
hidden ruins


Our inspiration for a day of 13km, crazy uphill the whole way.

Some of the ruins.

Look what I discovered!!!

The three explorers... I was stuck in the tent with terrible stomach cramps :(






Incan soccer balls!

The moon rise from our campsite

Despite my stomach problems I made it up to the
ruins for the evening
 (about 2km uphill from our campsite).


Camping under the southern cross, we felt
right at home.

A beautiful mountain creek.


It's easier to see in this photo the crazy hill we
went up 2 days before!

After our trek I made my way promptly to the hospital to be diagnosed with an amoeba parasite, I was given a whole lot of drugs and sent home. And during the week just past James spent 3 days being waited on hand and foot, watching a plasma TV and relaxing… with a  drip in his arm in the hospital. Another bout of gastro, nothing new, a whole lot of antibiotics and fluids, but all is well now! A bacterial infection, luckily nothing too serious.

Where will the coming weeks take us?? We are here for another month in Cusco, most likely finishing up our volunteering in around three weeks and spending our last week doing all of the touristy things we are yet to do here. And from there… who knows, we are dreaming of volunteering at a wildlife sanctuary in the jungle of Bolivia, drinking cocktails on the Caribbean Sea and following in Charles Darwin’s footsteps in the Galapagos…. I guess we need to wait and see.

Thursday, 12 July 2012

Strength


“I thought she was a strong girl,” I heard my grandads newest lady friend say from their bedroom down the hall, after my sobbing had subsided enough for me to hear anything.

“She is strong,” grandad replied, “but she can be emotional too.”

Sometimes a memory is a seed that has been planted, lying dormant in the deepest part of the brain, until something awakens it. This memory has been replaying in my mind often over the last few weeks, and while it has always been vivid it has never had a whole lot of significance until now.

The last few weeks have been hard, there isn’t another way to say it, and it has made me ponder the meaning of strength… Is it showing strength to stay in a situation that you don’t want to be in? Is it strong to put on a brave face when all you want to do is curl in a ball and cry? Is strength keeping your worries and troubles inside, letting them eat you up, refusing to talk about them? Or is strength more about acceptance, rather than avoidance, more about working and learning than it is soley about making it away from that place in which you don’t want to be.

At the start of this year I never realised how much strength I would need for this journey. Stepping into the airplane, not looking back, holding back the tears as best I could, that was strong. Sleeping in a half demolished farm house in Argentina, being eaten alive by mosquitoes, that was strong, as was telling the truth the next day and getting ourselves out of that situation. Meeting amazing people and having to say goodbye is always a test of strength. A month ago when we were living without power, I thought maybe it was strong to have a cold shower without complaining. Two weeks ago perhaps I was showing strength when I smiled at our landlady while she was shouting at me for breaking the electricity or closing the door too loudly or something or other. Last week I tried so hard to be strong when I found out my beautiful Tyson has cancer, but I couldn’t be strong. I broke down as soon as one of the kids at WaaW asked me what was wrong. But perhaps that was showing a strength in itself, showing these kids with a million hardships that sometimes even the profe can’t be strong, it’s okay to let it out. Last week it was strong to ask for help, to step up and demand fair treatment by asking a one of our teachers to help us reclaim our bond. Earlier this week I was strong when, after three days of broken promises of furniture in our new apartment I stepped outside my comfort zone and said no.  Enough is enough. I would prefer to be homeless than to put up with the type lies that can only be told when they can’t be fully understood. Yesterday I was strong in the taxi, while I was holding back tears an wondering just exactly where we would end up. I know I always have something and someone to fall back on, and for that I am lucky. 

Through all of our dramas, all it takes is for that little face peering in off the street to bring me back to reality, to make me realise that all of this strength I have is nothing compared to the kid out on the cold street at midnight selling finger puppets to the drunk tourists, the six year old who has just had two teeth pulled opening his mouth up wide to show you, the little man who fell out of a second floor window and a week later is up and running, telling the us how much he missed us. All it takes is the grateful hug of an eleven year old boy, 'Gracias Profe', to make it all worthwhile.

Strength always means different things in different situations. Strength isn't always about holding back the tears when nothing is going right, strength is getting past those tears to what is beyond them, an experience from which to learn and grow. Beyond those tears and that hardship there will always be something positive, be it lady luck at the other end, a new friend or even just a memory, as long as you keep pushing you’ll come across it eventually, as we have, here in our beautiful new apartment with two lofts, our beautiful friends, a package waiting at the post office to be picked up tomorrow and a little chihauhau in the courtyard to keep us company.

Thank you luck, thank you strength, and thank you James for holding me together over the last couple of weeks. Once again, with electricity, a place to call home and exciting things happening at the Aldea, I have re-claimed my optimism. I feel strong.

Wednesday, 20 June 2012

Rollercoaster


Travelling is both the most amazing and the most difficult adventure, an emotional rollercoaster. While it is an overused phrase, it makes perfect sense. One day I am going to live here forever, the next day, I want to go home… right now… I want a hug from my Mum and a vegemite sandwich, I want to eat roast pork with my family and fight over the crackling… and I want to see how much Immy and Zoe have grown and go to Healesville market with Carly and I want to eat fried rice with Bec and Brad and have an hour long D&M with Kirsti… I want to drive up the misty hill to Kallista and be hugged by all my kids from school and hear the staffroom gossip. I want to jump on the trampoline for hours with Aidan, Corey and Bailey until we all collapse from exhaustion. I want to go to a Thomson family dinner and sit and have a cup of tea with the Traceys… I would give anything right now to curl up on the couch with Jack and watch Karate Kid.

But… perhaps tomorrow, again, I will never want to leave the chaotic streets of Cusco, the daily parades and fireworks, always looking forward to the next big event. The burst of culture and community and reality that hits me each time I open the front door. The children with resilience an Australian teacher would be astounded at, an ability to get along, to give love to everyone and to never complain. I love so much the company of the wonderful people I have met here, though they will all travel onwards shortly too, perhaps to explore a different corner of the globe, perhaps to head home to all of the people they miss, and then I will have someone else to miss too…

I know it is pointless and timewasting to sit and mope and miss home, it is true, but sometimes it can’t really be helped. It isn’t every day, it isn’t even every week, but when it hits, it hits hard and heavy. And despite all of my wants and desires, if someone offered me free passage home right now, I know that I wouldn’t take it. I’m not finished travelling yet, I’m not finished learning about the world, and more importantly myself. In some ways I’m terrified of going home. How will I cope without James by my side almost 24 hours a day? Having to work 5 days a week again? Being surrounded by wealth and sterility? And it’s hard to really know how much I have changed, I think that will be a huge challenge in itself, figuring that out when I come home…

But hey… we will be here in Cusco for another 3 months… why don’t you come and visit me???


Sunday, 3 June 2012

Cusco... The Beginning!

So so much to fill in... We have been in Cusco for 4 weeks now, its quite hard to believe. We planned to only be here for 5 weeks, to learn a bit more Spanish, but we have fallen in love with the place... The colours and the culture and the festivities, the beautiful people, our lovely apartment we found and the beautiful FairServices community have all contributed to our desire to stay for longer... So, we have done what any good holiday makers do and we have extended our stay here... for three more months.... Three more months!

Every Sunday morning there is a big parade in Plaza De Armas, today was no exception... Today's Parade was bigger and better than the last few weeks, I think because its coming into festival season... Each day kindergardens, schools and universities have groups of students practicing traditional dancing in all the different plazas dotted around Cusco, preparing for Corpus Christi and Inti Raymi... Below are a few photos of today's parade around Plaza De Armas. 

Fireworks... they seem to go off all day every day,
often starting at 6 or 7am!

Watching the parade...

Colourful costumes and masks, representations
of the Spanards.
Todays parade seemed to be all about the public services,
all of the different police units were involved, including the
dog squad!


Traditional dancing is a whole family afair, with both kids and
adults being involved in the parades.

More colourful costumes and masks!

Our last four weeks have been a wonderful mix of exploring, learning and hard work. We started our classes at FairServices with no intention to spend more than our 4 hours of lessons each day there, though we have been drawn in by the beautiful culture, vision and enthusiasm of the organisation and have become super involved. We have started volunteering at an after school project for disadvantaged kids run and funded entirely by FairServices and volunteers. James has just taken over the role of Operations Manager from an inspiring young lady who has been there from the begining of the project, about 3 months ago, and I have taken over the role of Content Manager, deciding each week the activities that the kids will do. The project is named 'WaaW', derived from a Quechua word meaning child care, though the project is much more than that... 

WaaW started up 3 months ago, and is run out of a small, beautifully painted room, courtyard, and kitchen rented from a family who also provides home stays for language students in Kare Grande, a small and disadvantaged neighborhood about 20 minutes by taxi from the city center. In its first few days WaaW opened its doors to all of the kids in the neighborhood who had a need, and by the third day nearly 80  children were coming, in such a small space it wasn't possible, so the initial volunteers had to select 28 of the most needy kids, an extremely tough job I'm sure, I'm glad I wasn't involved in that. 

WaaW caters for primary aged kids, from 5 to 11 years old, and runs from 2:15 to 6:15 each afternoon. The first hour is dedicated to helping kids with their homework, even the 5 year olds often get enough homework to take up the hour... unthinkable in Australia... but the education system is very different here. In the next two hours the kids are split into two groups, the grandes and the pequenos... (bigs and littles)... They spend an hour each either in the classroom and courtyard completing different activities focusing on a particular theme for the month, the alternate hour the kids spend at the local park doing physical activities and games, often with other kids from the neighborhood sitting on the sidelines looking in, wishing they were a part of the action. And we wish we could include them...

During the last hour the kids are given a nutritious meal and are taught to brush their teeth...

Because of the level of poverty of the children we are working with, the parents, though they want to do the best by their children, very often don't have the knowledge... The aims of FairServices are huge, while they are starting small, they are aiming big, hoping to break the cycle of poverty from the bottom up. WaaW is an initial program aimed not only to help the kids, but also to gain the trust of the people. Because of some crazy history here in Peru many Peruvian people don't have trust for foreigners, rightly so, and seeing as the project is headed by a Belgian based not for profit organisation and run almost entirely by western volunteers this is a real problem. So, initially the aim is to gain trust, then the aim is to work down the age system... Providing health and childcare to toddlers and newborns and eventually to provide prenatal care and education to pregnant women who would otherwise not be able to afford any medical care. Education is  a main aim, education on the importance of nutrition and hygiene from birth. A typical meal for a Peruvian family consists of rice and potatoes, with chicken or meet on a special occasion, bread and sugary tea for breakfast and left overs from lunch for dinner... The nutritional content is not high enough to allow for optimal growth and development of not only little bubs bodies, but also their brains...

Early last week one of our little ones was having trouble eating, a sore tooth causing him so much pain his mum had come to us to ask for help, he wasn't eating, he was crying out in his sleep, she didn't know what to do... We had a look in his mouth and we could see the hole, after which other kids asked us to look at their teeth... these poor kids do suffer. Luckily one of the volunteers had a connection with a local dentist who was willing to come and take a look at the kids free of charge. The result was horrendous....

Out of the 16 children the dentist had time to check, 7 teeth needed pulling and another 157 teeth have holes that need to be filled. The little chicken in pain was not the worst in terms of his teeth, but was the worst in terms of the infection... The dentist came back to us with a quote for each child, the worst (a tiny little 5 year old) needing $1900 soles worth of work ($725). FairServices is going to pay for the majority of this work... putting a major dent in the fundraising they are doing to purchase land and build a custom made center to cater for all of their aims.

But... FairServices is about the positive, about the 28 little munchkins who now get to eat a healthy meal every evening, get help with their homework, who are no longer obliged to sit at their mums work all afternoon... 28 little angels who have so much love to give, never a day goes by when the profe's don't get a hug and a kiss and fall a little bit more in love with these kids, who despite having so little, are able to give so much...